Ohh give me the beat boys and free my soul.. I want to get lost in your rock and roll..

Hello!

Sorry its been a while! I cannot believe it is already September! Where did the time go? Where did the summer go? I am ready for leather jackets, combat boots, scarves, hats, gloves, shawls, sweatshirts and more! Fall is my favorite time of year. There is something about the way that fall smells, that pumpkin spice, the dying leaves it just fills me. Though I will admit I am not a huge pumpkin spice fan, as much as I am a Gingerbread latte fan- but that’s more in the holiday season- not rushing that! Well I would love a Gingerbread coffee right now, but I guess I can wait.

What I really intended to write about besides my clear coffee obsession is music. You’ll notice the title of this post is song lyrics from Bob Seger’s song “I want to get lost in your Rock N’ Roll”. That’s truly how I feel about rock and roll music in general. Its in the moment of venting frustration, pain and struggle- and knowing that other people (usually the artist) is speaking the words you thought were only in your head; that these feeling were specific to you. That’s the thing- they’re not, and its wonderful. Other people have gone through the exact same thing- the struggle that it is to be human. Sometimes it just feels good screaming song lyrics in my car.

Lately my personal and professional life has been draining me dry- bringing me to the point of exhaustion. But what has gotten me through- (a thank you to my friends, family and boyfriend who are my constant rock and support)- but on a more personal level- that time when its just you and your thoughts; what has gotten me through is the music. It always has been the music. It “frees my soul.. I want to get lost in your Rock N’ Roll and drift away..”.

A new song I discovered from a recent favorite artist is “Fighter” by In this Moment. Listen here.

The song lyrics that stick out to me the most are:

“I will fall and rise above
And in your hate I find love
‘Cause I’m a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter

I will not hide my face
I will not fall from grace
I’ll walk into the fire, baby

All my life
I was afraid to die
And now I come alive inside these flames”

I pick these lyrics in particular because what speaks to me is surviving; rising above. Someone once told me, (in reference to being a star) that you must burn to shine. I thought this was appropriate to both how I feel and the visualization of fire in these lyrics.

As a plus size woman, I often find the rejection from society so in my face 24/7 there is no escape from it. Especially with todays technology- its so easily assessable around the clock; its almost suffocating at times. I mean look at the you tube post that recently went viral- “Dear Fat People” is all I will say- I mean look how easy it is for people to just spew hatred, especially on such a public platform; its disgusting.

This is where those lyrics become true for me.. “In your hate, I find love”. I give a thousand kudos to those women putting themselves out there and publicly taking this hate- someone like Whitney Way Thore. Good for her- she’s honestly more brave then I would be. It takes balls to be out in the public eye and say “Fuck you guys, I am who I am, take it or leave it” (not that she said those words), but she doesn’t have to. Actions will always speak louder then words. And not for nothing, but I don’t see anyone else who comments or criticizes stepping up to the plate. Its easy to be bold behind a screen. I think its cowardly. Whitney has all my support and I cannot wait for her second season of “My Big Fat Fabulous Life” to air. It takes courage to be a symbol and get out there. What I love most about her is her realness and her positive attitude- her platform #NoBodyShameCampaign You Rock on Girl!

I love ITM next lines “I will not hide my face/ I will not fall from grace”. I love love love this because its again exactly how I feel. Despite what you might think of me (or anyone else) as a plus size person- I will still always be here, and I will NOT hide my face. You have a problem with me? That’s YOUR problem, not mine. I am a firm believer in self reliance and responsibility. ITM’s next line ” I will not fall from grace” I just love even more, because to me it means no matter what shit you have to say about me, or what you think of me has NO power over me. I yield my own results, and no one else. If I “fall from grace” it will be because of me, and not you. YOU and only YOU determine your fate. Your choices will determine your outcome; no one else’s. And if you don’t choose for yourself, you let someone choose for you. You give up your voice. I say, Fuck that! I have a lot to say! I will not be silenced and neither should you.

“I will walk into the fire”- this next line- is embracing this journey.  Knowing what lies ahead and walking through the flames anyway. Having the balls to know what you want and to go for it. Only you have the power to shape you. You are all that matters. Every day I work on loving myself, and who I see in the mirror. From P!NK’s lyrics (Fuckin’ Perfect)- I will “change the voices in (my) head, make them like you, instead”. Its true. The only voice you control in your head is yours. There will always be people telling you what to think and what to do- but YOU need to decide for You! You make that choice. Take control.

“All my life/ I was afraid to die/ And now I come alive inside these flames” This is perfect. (And not dying in the literal sense here people). All my life, I was afraid- those lyrics are true. Growing up you become afraid of not fitting it, of being the outcast, of being called the fat girl. I felt the same things, I am not different than you. But- and this is important- because I embrace my inner freak, embrace my life and my journey- I not only “come alive” but I thrive! You walk into the fire, and come alive inside the flames. Its all about change. To me, its about letting go, and allowing yourself to transform and change into the woman you were born to become.

I don’t mean to sound preachy here- but this song, Rock N’ Roll in general for me, is empowering. Screaming these lyrics in my car on my ride home from my day job, gets me through the day. I scream sometimes to just feel alive; to say I am here. And it feels good. Let it go- release all this energy that’s building up inside. Decide for yourself how you feel and what you want. Don’t ever let anyone tell you your not enough. Or that your not this or not that; its always something. Why does it seem always so hard to find the people who want to help you instead of wanting to hurt you.

This is again one of my philosophies. We can make it together. There is already some much hatred in this world, so much shame and blame. There is no need for any of this. And down to my core I don’t understand the need women feel to tear each other down. I truly can’t understand. If women as a whole knew just how powerful we were together, we would be unstoppable. Its recognizing that inner power and using it, and not letting anyone take it away from  you. It never hurts to help. We will make it together because “I’m a survivor/ yeah I am a fighter” and so are you. The fight isn’t easy. But if its worth fighting- never stop. You ARE worth fighting for. Don’t anyone ever tell you otherwise.

I want to hear from you! What do you think? Who inspires you? What music gets you through your day? Shout out in a comment below! Thanks for reading!

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Stay Classy!

-A

Ⓒ Rose Riot 2016

The 1st Annual Boston Curvy Fashion Week 2015!

Woo! Welcome back to the fabulous blog of me and my ventures with ASK Fashion!

This past weekend was the very 1st annual Boston Curvy Fashion Week! Woo! I was sooo excited that my own home town had finally jumped onto the plus size fashion scene.

The Boston Curvy Fashion Week- was actually a weekend- and took place over 4 days; Thursday through Sunday. The first event was the Media and Press event that was held at UFORGE Gallery in Boston. It’s a small gallery that has local art work. It took me a few minutes to find it, and then find walking distance parking. Luckily I found a spot I could park where I didn’t have to pay. It was a beautiful night that night; not that I ended up walking far. (Basically through a Dunkin Donuts parking lot)

The event took place for a few hours that night. The team introduced themselves and gave an over view of the run of events that weekend. They even called on me to give a little speech about ASK Fashion; which was cool but totally unexpected. We mingled and had light snacks- they even had a Instagram board to take large selfies in. It was cool. See my picture below.

What is cool about these kind of events, is even though they are on the smaller attendance side- the people who you get to talk to are sometimes people you have been following for a while on the internet. Which is cool- I like being able to meet someone I have been following online for a long period of time. I’m like- OH OK now I know who you are! Which I like; sometimes we get caught up in this digital age that we forget the joys of actually spending time with people: in person, and not via computer screen.

The next day- Friday- was the Curvy Night Experience Party. This event had vendors- which you could see and do some shopping and have fun! This was at the Boston Common Hotel and Conference Center- right next to the Back Bay Train Station (Near Copley). This made my commute easy- AND the parking garage was literally right next to the hotel- and I mean like 20 steps from garage to hotel. I was glad I found that out the first next- as I was schlepping all of my vendor table set up with me that night. If I was only attending the event I probably would have taken the train- but I was a vendor and I did a runway show on Saturday- so taking my car to carry all of the garments, combat boots etc seemed like the best option.

The Curvy Night Experience went well! What I love about vendor events too is being able to display all of my garments for people to touch and see. Sometimes it’s about the feel of the fabric, and the look of when you try it on. It’s so hard to shop online it’s much easier to see for yourself what fabric feels like, how it drapes, what color it really is- first, before purchasing. Coming to the ASK Fashion Pop-Up shop is for sure the best way to try on all of my current fashion line.

However I do have an easy return policy; for those who can’t travel and need to purchase online! Don’t worry! I aim to please! But I do understand the need to shop in person as well. See below some of my garments I had for sale on my clothing rack. All are available here! If you read this far- use code BCFWeek15 for 15% off your purchase! Woo! Coupons! Who doesn’t love a coupon!

Speaking of- if your missed Boston Fashion Week and will be in the Baltimore MD area this coming weekend (July 31st-August 2nd) I will be at Curves Rock Weekend!! I will have another Pop-Up shop! Come on by and see me! I love taking pictures and getting feedback and talking to you! That again is one of the best parts of the events; is talking to people and really getting to know you! I love to hear your stories, opinions, shopping woes and hopes! It really helps me out; not only as a designer but as another plus size consumer. See below for the Curves Rock Flyer! Come by and see my table!

I even decided to get in front of the camera myself, and take photos of me (size 26) in my own line! I think more retailers need to shop more “Real” women in their clothing. The wonderful models who are 5’ 10” and a size 14/16 are fabulous- but sometimes it doesn’t help me out- a size 26 and 5’ 5” woman. I am all about real representation! If you’re in the Boston Area and would like to model for ASK Fashion- please send me an e-mail! I am ALWAYS looking for new models! Email me at askfashion90@gmail.com

The vendor event went well. I closed up shop a few minutes ahead of schedule; I was starving, and I had to get ready for the runway show Saturday morning! I did have the pleasure of meeting Dressing Room 8’s Natasha Nurse; who I got a bite to eat after the event Friday night! I love talking to people! I really do- I am a chatter box, I think sometimes I can’t stop talking!

Anyway- Saturday was the Curves are Coming Runway Show! This was held again at the Boston Common Hotel and Conference Center. Really easy to get to. All the models showed up ahead of time- getting their hair and make-up done. I brought all 11 pairs of combat boots! A few of my models brought their own kick ass combat boots- which went perfect with the collection! I re-showcased my fall/winter collection that was previously shown at Style Week North East. This collection was a darker color pallet, all about British Punk Rock and a Kick Ass attitude. The collection was entitled “We are Taking Over”; plus size fashion is here and we are taking over the industry. We are kicking ass and taking names and we are here to stay.

That’s truly how I feel. The standardized fashion industry can suck it. I have never been any less than a double digit my entire life, and though its now a little easier to find clothing- there is nothing really on the market that caters to me and what I want… AND that helps to support American Manufacturing. Fashion is a global business, but I feel it is vital and important to understand exactly where our clothing is coming from; who is making it, where is the fabric being woven, what the clothing history is. Being made in the USA is a very important and un-negotiable part of ASK Fashion. When you buy from ASK- you buy from me; a piece of my heart and soul that has been carefully cherished and nurtured from my head and heart through a transparent and sustainable supply chain. I don’t mean to sound preachy here- but it means a lot to me.

At the end of the day- you get what you pay for. ASK Fashion is an investment; it’s an acknowledgement that we need to help support American design and manufacturing, and that we are where our clothing comes from; and we look kick ass while we do it. It’s about investing in each other. ASK Fashion is quality garments made from the best fabrics. My clothing doesn’t cost $4, but it’s not going to fall apart the first time you wash it either. ASK is an investment- in our country and in ourselves (and in ME!) You won’t find anything else on the market like it. This is how I feel and what I and ASK Fashion stand for. Take it or leave it.

Sorry to get on a tangent- back to the showcase. I want to point out- this is solely from my (designer) perspective of the show, so I don’t have the full details of the events, as I was participating in the event, and not watching. The models did a good job kicking ass and taking names down the runway. My finale model Nina even strutted her stuff down the runway on the sprained ankle- now that’s dedication! Nina is a rockstar! We even had time to do impromptu photo shoots on the stairs, in the elevator and outside on their little patio.

The girls did great, and my song- “Prisoner of Society” by the Living Dead- I thought was appreciate, and it got everyone in the kick ass mood. It was very catchy. I am not going to lie- I totally listened to it on repeat on my drive home after the show. I just couldn’t get enough!

All in all the show went decently smoothly. There were a few acts in between each show case- (not sure what those were- as I was back stage getting my ladies ready).  For the first time putting on a series of events like this- I think they did a decent job. It’s a lot to take on, and its way more than it seems. I do think some improvements can be made- like more lighting on the runway- but again for the first run- it wasn’t bad at all.

Were you in the audience? I would love to know what you thought of the show? Did you attend any of the other events?

Leave a comment below- I would like to know what you think!

Thanks! Woo!-A